Been A While

Hey everyone .
Well it has been a while since I bloged and not alot i can think of about it to write here.

I just want to say a big thank you to all my friends that helped me through these hard ties and always been by my side. There are veary few of you whou understood but i really appricitate your concern.

As it will prob turn out that I have deppression I just ask all of you to help love support me. I may get veary upset some days and be happy others. I just really hope all u can understand what i going through and be there when most ppl wont be.

And to those of you that wondering why im not at youth.
Just please respect my descion in not going i have lots of good reasons not to go. But their my personal descions and i expect ppl to respect that OK?

and i offically Sad for liking someone with a girlfriend YAY!
oh the joys of life hey?

That is all.
xx Vee

Emo...

Hey well hmm i dunno
lots going on atm and nothing to really express how im feeling inside.
I wanna disapear into the darkness of my thoughts
I wanna hide from this world, from all the people that stare and judge me.
Im sick of ppl juding the book by its cover, there is so much more inside of that ppl dont c the beauty that lies inside.
Trying to find the meaning of wat happens and i seems hard to link God with everything.

IM SICK OF PPL CALLING ME EMO
I am who i am get over it already!
IF that makes me emo so be it..

thats my ending for today..
So long and Goodnight.
xx

Random day + Song in making

Well today had been really random!
I stayed at Linda's house after Youth and Steph was there.. We decided to go to the beach since it was still hot.
Steph and I had a water fight in our good clothes... not the best move in the entire world since didnt have a spare change of clothes with me.. lol
When we came back Linda and I where so awake but Steph wwas getting tired and in mid convo she like fell asleep on us.. like wat a party pooper!
Linda and I didnt sleep till like 4:30am.. and we got up at like 7... YAY..

Linda and I went for a long walk today walked from Edithvale to Carrum and we where so stuffed when we got home... Drank all the cordial and piged out on the scones :D.. Eating easy mac as we speek MMM

I started writing a song kinda the other day and got a spark today and wrote more..
I'll give the darft here Comment me on wat u guys think PLZ!

-No name.

v1 : Sitting in a dark room,
thinking of what could be,
Can't you see the pain the you've caused?
The blood runs onto the sheets,
And It leaves a stain that you'll never forget.

c:If only he knew,
that this is what he does to me,
Then mabye he'd care
mabye everything will be fine,
If only he loved me.

Thats all i have so far.
comment on it =] be honest i dont care if u hate it lol.

Love Me!

weirdst/worst day ever

Well you can gather by the titel how my day has been.
more bad the weird i guess but anyway!
Lets start from the start!

I'm at Linda's house at the moment because of the situation with ys grandparents and like last night we where so awake.. We where watching promo's on late night T.V at about 3:ooam and this Latin dancing thing came on and kept repeting. All the sudden Linda got to urge to Latin Dance and put a random Girl cd (from like 2004/5) and started to like dance around.. It was soo scary LOL I was randomly on youtube watching Victoria (victor) 2. (its this vid my mates from RSC made but the return of and its soo horrible Chris(liwanpo) is like a girl in it.. they take it to far!)
And then like didnt sleep till 5am WOW!

At 10:30 that morning I was awake and thought Linda was asleep (thou I was later to find out she was faking it) and i went out to get breky. And her dad started talking to me about how Linda is going throu a "silly fase" and i should be a good influance on her and blah blah it was so random..

Randomly around 12ish there was a bang at the door and it was STEPH (old friend from school) and normaly it's awkawrd but today it wasn't which was pretty cool but how long will it last?? We shall see at MCR.

I had been trying to get in contact with Chris for like 2 days about where i was going to and no luck and finally got throu today but scared the crap outa Brandon coz i was really enthusiastic.. lol
He was soo rude to me today.. Like I sent him a message to remind him to tell his mum to give me a call, and he sent me a message and said "I was thinking about that. Sorry but I don't really want my mum talking to my friends it's nothing personal but yeh" (he had no-idea his mum said the stuff about living with them). and then im like but its not like we r talking about u and this is really urgent. and his like nahh sry i dunno. Then I told him wats going on.. THEN THE RUDEST MSG: "I dont think this is the right time" (when is it the right time? not like i got kicked out on purpose) So i sent this bac: How rude.. this is like really urgent.. do u really want me on the streets? because that'll happen if i dont talk to her" I exajurated a little but it got desired effect.
Well his mum called me.... and said it wasnt a good idea... because of this and that i can't really reember wat she said coz zoned out by that point..

Msg'd mum in panic... she called me and offerd advice... I DIDNT WANT ADVICE wanted a roof over my head... and im her own daughter and she didnt offer me a temp place to stay.. like WTH... stay at my friends till i can get somewhere stable i guess idk..

iv had such a random day.. ended up crying three times at least.. ....

Thats all..
long blog..
-Chavella

well helloooooo

You may be wondering what happend to the other blog,
well my msn got hacked into and my myspace so had to like change all my passwords and stuff, but when I tryed to log into y other blog I forgot the password and because the eail was my old one I couldn't retrive it so decided to make a new blog!

Been a while since I'v posted but not a lot has happend.

Finished TAFE.. was randomly uncool

Tryed for Bakersdelite job and somehow they came up with the excuse that I backchatted.. I' like asif i did >.< LIESSSSSSS
Anyone want to help me egg them?

Wee I'm at Linda's house atm listing to silverstein.. cant sleep lol.. My grandparents hate me YAY
might end up staying at Chris's house till I make ends meet.. That'd be soo awkard.. since well.. yer

My walk with God is really like weird it feels like I'm growing but at the same time I feel the sae and at others I feel like I've fallen..
This week at Youth it was especially hard because it was parents night.. awkard.. made me really cry because of y family situation the way it is. Chris's mu came up and hugged e.. it was veary rando but its was a really nice thought and she offed me a place at their house lol.. Thats why I might end up there.

As for a boy well..
It's kind of complicated at the moment..


Thats all i really can think about atm.
Bye.
Chavella